My secret ‘love’ addiction

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Today, I want to get ‘under the sheets’ with you. 

Under the sheets of my skin, my bones, and my soul.

Why?

Because so many people are struggling with their emotions, and they use a plethora of ways to cope with what they feel.

I used love.

To get love, I used to manipulate. Perfectly.
Especially love in the context of my marriage, to help me cope with my brokenness.
I perceived my husband as the ‘’ultimate source’’ of love in my life.
I’d project all my needs around love and receiving love. ALL. THE. TIME. 

Which, as you can imagine, led to a tremendous amount of suffering. 

Anytime my husband would do something that ‘didn’t fit in this box’ — in other words, he’d trigger me — I’d feel my brokenness so deeply.  

When my husband would come home late, or spend extra time on his laptop, or look at another woman, I felt jealous.

That jealousy would create a fire inside me and I’d provoke a horrendous argument. 

I’d call my husband names.
Try to rip him apart.
Do everything I could to punish him for my pain.
And, of course, I would spend the night sleeping in our spare bedroom.
That same night, I would pray to God to stop this suffering. 
Right here, right now.

I didn’t want to live anymore.


When I started to do sexual healing and trauma resolution work, I made the decision to fall in love with myself.

Because if I were completely in love with myself, then loving my husband would become easier.

Deciding how I felt about the way he spends his time or which woman he looks at would be simpler because they would either line up with me being in love with myself or they wouldn’t.

Loving myself made me decide that I’d give myself EVERYTHING I’d ever wanted from my husband. 

I started to drive cross-country for myself, make myself the best dinners, buy myself the best cuts of meat, take myself on expensive vacations, and supported my decisions to try new passions and ways of being.

I began to love my body. Holding and comforting myself when I was sad. Listening to myself when I was angry.  

I stopped berating myself for having emotions.
I no longer felt guilty for having needs. 

Now, my marriage is TRANSFORMED.


The opportunity to apply for  the Sexy Confidence Mentoring & 1×1 Programme  is now LIVE! 

I am so excited to open up an opportunity inside of this most exclusive programme, 100% customized to your personal needs.  

Why? Because: 

  1. With confidence, you can easily pursue all of your dreams.
  2. With confidence, you feel deeply at home in your own body. 
  3. With confidence, you radiate love and positivity.
  4. With confidence, you have the strength to go through life’s ups and downs. 
  5. With confidence, you simply experience life on your own terms. 

When you feel SEXY CONFIDENCE, you feel peaceful freedom inside yourself that is PRICELESS. And guess what? 

NO ONE CAN GIVE IT TO YOU, AND NO ONE CAN TAKE IT AWAY.

 

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